I just knew it, my body and my heart were telling me. I took 4 pregnancy tests in one day, all saying positive. Then Cameron finally believed me. It was a total shock. There were tears, doubts, smiles and fears. We slowly got excited to be having a little child. We have laid in bed so many nights and laughed about things we would say in high school to each other and feeling like they are coming true. We are going to be a family and we can cuddle every night and being married to each other is the best, just like we had hoped for at so young of an age.

I am 11 weeks pregnant now and it has been really hard. Making a human is hard work but I never wish I wasn't pregnant with this baby. I am realizing what it means to have a motherly love. I would do anything for this little baby and we don't even know if it is a boy or girl yet! 

I have a husband who is so sweet to me and a husband who is so excited and loving towards our baby and a husband who treats my cat like it is our child. He is just the best ever. I feel overwhelmed and excited to be a mother and be expecting a child. My life is so precious and I feel undeserving of it at times. 

S a m p s o n

t i m e   s p e n t   w i t h   c a t s   i s   n e v e r   w a s t e d   

-   s i g m u n d   f r e u d 

Today was our last day with Sampson. He was diagnosed with FIP which is an incurable disease. I cannot explain the heartbreak I feel over not having him around anymore, but I know that he is no longer suffering. He was a joy in my life and I cherish every memory I have of him. I am grateful for a husband who got him for me, giving me the chance to love him for all of his short life and for consoling me throughout today's tears. We love you Sampson, you are in our hearts forever. Can't wait to be with you again. Rest peacefully in kitty heaven. 

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MARRIED

We were married April 26th 2013 in beautiful California. It was the best day of my life thus far. Walking down the isle towards the man I have always loved and always will love was (oh wow, I'm already crying) a dream come true. I will never forget his face when we stood at the alter. I will never forget how his hands felt when I put his ring on him. The day still happened all so fast and luckily we had an amazing photographer to capture it all so we can relive each moment. We haven't received all of the photos yet but we have had sneak peeks at a few and they are to die for. To see the entire blog post and photos from our special day visit Stacey Bishop's Photography blog. We feel so lucky to have been surrounded by people that day who have all played a role in our lives. We are especially grateful to our parents who made it all happen. We have been married a week and it has been the best week.

HOME: IN PROGRESS

Yesterday, just like I had hoped-- Cameron bought me a desk. We got it at the D.I. It is the perfect size and in great shape. Once we bought it and began carrying it to a lovely friends car (Thanks, Jake! No way it was fitting in mine.) we realized it actually is an art desk too! The top can be brought up and locked in different angles-- just like an easel. It was a match made in heaven for me. Once we got it in the perfect place, I immediately went through all of my art things, organized them and put them away in the drawers and cubbies.  I love it!

In general, I think I rearrange things in the house a few times a week. I'm trying to get it just right. The hard part is that right now I just have my twin bed but once Cameron and I are married we will be getting a larger bed, as well as gifts and things that will be given as wedding gifts. It's driving me crazy there is no rug, but we figure we will wait until we have gift cards from our wedding to purchase one. Also, there's nothing on the walls which makes me feel like I actually do live in a box. But just like the rug, we're waiting a little while to buy all of the art for the walls and get it hung up. So as you see there isn't much I can actually do, but I am still driving myself crazy over it. Sounds about right. 

But I love this little (no seriously, little) place and once it is all put together I will post pictures! 

BUSY

First, I have to start by announcing: LESS THAN TWO WEEKS UNTIL WE ARE MARRIED!

Okay, now that I've gotten that out I can focus. This week felt unusually long since I was sick. You know that feeling when you know at any second snot could come dripping out of your nose? Yeah, I had that all week. I stayed home one day when I literally couldn't move from my bed and Pizza snuggled me the whole day and gave me nose kisses. He knows when I need extra loves. But now it's Saturday (I'm still sick, but who cares? I don't have work today!)

This upcoming week I will be in a hussle and bussle to get things done!

1. Packing for California- I'll need everything for the bridal shower, the wedding, the honeymoon and all the days in between. Good thing I have a suit case that takes up half of my closet. 

2. Getting my eyelash extensions done-- for the first time ever!

3. Giving Cameron and Pizza lots of kisses to make up for the time I won't be with them.

4. Freaking out (in the excited way) about getting married!

Excited for Cameron to get off work because we are going to try and find me a desk at the D.I. for my craft area. Because without an occasional craft or painting-- I'm going crazy. Hopefully we find one!

AND SO IT BEGINS

With the start of a new life together I decided--we need a blog. A journal of our life from here on out. 

We get married in 25 days *gasp* and we literally cannot wait. With that being said, most all of the planning is done and so we are just waiting around.

 I moved into our future home a week or two ago and it's becoming a home little by little. Cameron has his music making studio as he likes to call it. I, nor Pizza, are allowed in that area. By "area" I mean a desk he found on the side of the road for free and hauled into the place. Pizza has his area too. He sits on top of the bookshelf under the window most of each day or napping on the bed. Right now he is staring in complete awe at the rain hitting the window. It's his first time ever seeing this. Tender moment for a mother *tear*. I will have my area soon, we just need to find another desk and then I can have my arts & crafts area. 

Cameron and I talk about how one day we will look back and laugh at our small little studio that we lived in together when we first got married. But for now, it's perfect.